salam buat all reviewer.. (mcm la ramai sgt tgok blog aq nih..ha3)
dah lama x update.. k lah..direct to the story
admin baru jer lepas satu event besar dlm arena sukan negara.. iaitu Karnival Sukan IPT 2012... x nk trgkn lebih details ap itu sukipt.. make ur own research la yer.. admin trlibat sama dlm sukipt nih.. representing USIM for Taekwondo (Koryugi) sparring..
first game admin (bout 10) lawan KPTM. admin mng faults keats lawan w'pun lawan mndahului admin dgn 8 mata.. but the best man win rght.. so, admin mng lah.. he3...
unfortunately, admin x dpt teruskn utk game kedua.. got injury from the 1st game td.. Dr. brtugas x bg lawan alasan beliau admin suspect fracture kt jari.. kene g xray.. Alhamdulillah kptsn XRay mnnjukkan tulang normal just bgkak ajer.. tp dh trlmbat, mood brlawan dah padam + tahu lawan kedua nt Gold medalist SUKMA pahang baru2 nih.. (GULP!).. ha3.. better jgn cari pasal la kan.. ha8.. (penakut!!) bukan takut.. Doktor x bg main lah.. hahaha
Penangan SUKIPT 2012
coach pun kata, this tournament not our's.. kene buat lg bnyk preparation utk jd a great fghter.. anyway, hasrat admin utk mng game prtama trcapai.. (kata org, dptkn yg prtama dahulu, yg kedua akn menyusul later..so, dont GIVE UP!!)
salam.. tupp.. tupp.. dah tggal satu paper lagi yg tggl.. Managerial Accounting.. semester ni amat menyakitkn kepala aq.. ha3.. 9 subjek equal to 25 jam credit. maunya x pening.. but at least puas hati la sbb x de hari yg exam 2 paper skali gus.. tgok kawan2 yg kene 2 paper satu hari naik kesian lak..
anyway, moga ap yg usahakn selma ni mmbeuahkn hasil yg lagi baik dari sebelumnya.. walaupun tahu semester ni aq bnyk main2 even tgh exam pun blh main.. bese la , aktif sgt.. x leh duk diam.. gud luck buat kawan2!
salam.. pada tahun ni aq dapat ahli keluarga baru.. senang cerita 'nephew'.. bermula saat itu jugaklah aq bertukar kepada status 'pak cik' @ pak su.. nge =)
dah lama x jumpa dak kecik tuh.. rindu lak kt dye.. hanya gmbr shj yg blh jadi pengubat rndu.. mesti bangga giler dak tuh klu tahu pak cik dye rindu kt dye.. tp yg pasti dye mmg x kenal aq..sbb jumpa pun baru sekali..
baru nih ade gak tanya khabar kak ipar ttg dak kecik tuh.. dah pandai gelak dan menjerit dah..! abg aq kata dak nih suka usik org.. usik? bila org tggl dye sorg2 dlm bilik, dye mnjerit then bila org dtg dye gelakk.. mmg cumil dak nih.. nih la gmbr dak tuh.. geram aq nengok, cubit kang!
"Hai pak su, sory aitu 'terbuang' atas tgn pak su.." =)
"Pak Su x nk dtg tgok Darwish ke??"
ok, betulkn aq ckp, dak nih comel.. muka ade mirip abg aq sikit.. dah kacuk cina+melayu.. =)
sdh brtahun.. masih mncari turning point utk diri sdri.. trnyata tdk mudah utk lari dari kesilapan masa lalu.. umpama menagih dadah.. semua perkara mnjadi tdk keruan tanpanya.. bimbang akn memakan diri sdri sedikit masa lagi.. na'uzubillah.. semua usaha utk lari x berjaya.. ada shj ruang dan luang utk mengingatinya.. sdh berkali cuba menepis, namun kesan bertahun lamanya sudah berbekas dan trsemat dlm ingatan.. xmgkin dilupai.. pernah ku berdoa supaya lupa ingatan agar aku kmbali mnjadi normal walaupun tnpa ingtan masa lalu.. namun aku rela, agar aku dpt mnjauhkn diri darinya.. mgkin Tuhan masih mnguji dan Dia Maha Tahu bhw aku dpt menempuhi segala dugaan masa lalu.. alangkah indahnya mnjadi seperti sahabat2 yg normal fikirannya dan tingkah lakunya.. namun berbeza dgn diriku yg mmpunyai dua 'personaliti' ini.. amat rumit utk mengendalikannya.. umpama hitam dan putih..yg pasti aku dpt merasainya.. moga kekuatan terus diberikan utkku terus melawannya hingga hujung nyawa, tanpa nafas..jika itu turning pointnya.. aku rela..
I'm now reading this book titled as " Inside WikiLeaks" author by Daniel Domscheit-Berg (Former Spokesman for WikiLeaks). this book narrate the time that he spend together with Julian Assange. i'm not completed reading this book yet. waiting for a suitable time to read this book since i'm busy with others work and training this two months. anyway my friend promised me that i'll get something important in this book, how important i still dont know it yet.. Picture below is Julian Assange(right) and Daniel Domscheit-Berg (left) -
psst- WikiLeaks is the 'world's most dangerous' website that put fear into the hearts of the politicians, business leaders, and military commanders of this world. they probably had nightmares about us (WikiLeaks). A lot of them probably wished that we never been born.
i never worried about you because i know who you are..
the problem is with my own self.. the problem is me...me.. not you..
i'm afraid i cant stand it alone.. hoping that you understand it..
I feel my time is slipping away,
(Every minute gone by seems like a day),
I’ll never get back the things I lost along the way,
What the hell is wrong with me?
This isn’t who I’m suppose to be
I feel all alone everyday,
And just so far away,
I know something’s got to change,
Inside of me,
What is it that I’m running from?
My head is like a loading gun,
Every thought is trapped inside this web I’ve spun
What the hell is wrong with me?
This isn’t who I’m suppose to be,
I feel all alone everyday,
And just so faraway,
I know something’s got to change,
Inside of me.
(LP-IOM)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
sejak akhir2 ini aku kerap bersendirian.. nk kata gelisah x jugak.. tp lebih kepada murung lah.. fikiran selalu berada di luar realiti.. menerawang jauh ntah ke mana... huh..
aku sdri x pasti kenapa aku jadi begini... keadaan aku ni turut disedari adik agkat aku.. time drive kete, selalu terlepas cabang dan berhenti di u-turn yg salah padahal aku mahir benar dgn selok belok jln di kwsn tu.. bila drive hanya mata aku shj yg memastikan aku x accident.. hatiku sudah ntah kemana.. mcm berada di tahap depression yg kritikal.. huh..
aku sudah x boleh focus bila buat kerja even time brsukan pun jadi x de mood..
kerana apakah..? (nk tahu ap yg aq rasa? hayati setiap lagu blog aku nih.. aku kdg2 menangis tnpa sebab.. so many things inside my heart that i cant explain it even i've tried..)